Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Today was a really hard day. The community garden that I've been helping coordinate was pretty much destroyed by a well-meaning volunteer group. So much of what we've been working for in terms of community building through the garden was destroyed, along with all the promise of a good harvest. I'm really sick about it. I don't even want to eat, and I'm not usually like that. I'm sad, frustrated and angry. We were going to pull up a few plants and replace them with raised beds because of some issues with lead in the soil. When I arrived at the garden this morning, whoever was getting tools and materials out had pulled out EVERY SINGLE THING in the garden and even disassembled and thrown away the raised beds we'd already built. I was too shocked to even know how to respond. I'm too much of an appeaser and I didn't want the volunteers to feel bad that everything had been ruined, so I tried to play it off and ended up letting them go ahead with things that I really wasn't comfortable with because I didn't know how to say no. They kind of came in and took over. I know that nothing can bring back what we had, but I still feel like we need to discuss with the leaders of the group and let them know that it was not acceptable to come in and pull up our whole garden without having someone on site to give them the go ahead. It makes me just want to quit and give up on this garden. I feel like the vision we had for the garden has been destroyed and, in a lot of practical ways, cannot be recovered. Please pray for me for grace and peace, for wisdom to know how to respond to this, and that God would do something amazing out of this broken situation. Thanks.